I felt empty as I was waiting for my phone to ring all the night. Then morning came, nobody had called, and I cried.
There were some works need to be done. But I just couldn’t start. I ran around my small room and found my poor guitar sleeping in the dresser. I grabbed her, wanted to play, but she was broken…just like how I was.
I felt sad for her. She should have been with someone else, not me who all the time played only sad songs…
Not a happy day…
After having been to the rally everyday, I’m now taking a break for going back there again soon. There are so much to do and to think. How are we going to do next? Now it’s not the fight between 2 power guys, but it’s the conflict deepened in people all over the country. I was so mad and sad to hear and see what just happened with Kom Chad Luek newspaper and what those stupid did in Chiang Mai.
I see no way out, but I won’t give up my hope. I’m tired, but I won’t discourage myself. And I’m poor, but I will be always rich with happiness and friends.
Not a bad day actually…
I just spent a lot of money at book fair. Now I’m totally broke. I have just 500 baht left for the whole month. I will try and see if I can do it, to survive with this money. Many farmers and labours can do it ! They make small money to feed their big families. I must be able to do it too!
I wish I could play and sing a happy song. I would go out to the park in my area and make some noney to buy icecream :D
Hmn..It’s ok..I can eat my books. :D
Ok…I’m going to fix my guitar..and fix my feeling. No more waiting for emptiness.